Happy.

When Scott and I first got married he mentioned joining the Air Force as a way of supplying for our family. Before he could even finish that sentence I quickly told him 'no way', if he wanted to be military he could but I was staying behind in Deatsville Alabama. I was not ready to leave Momma, even though I was married. How immature. I was only seventeen at the time, though and the thought of the unknown scared me.

He never did mention it again. Now I look back and think 'Why couldn't I have just given in and talked to him about it?' he would already be an E-5 or E-6 and we'd be well off. Who knows where we would be. Then again if we had joined our marriage might not have survived and we would not be together or have two beautiful children. We probably wouldn't have met the people or have the friends we do now.

When we got pregnant with Lilly I knew something had to change. Mom and Dad were buying groceries and diapers, they were bending over backwards to do everything they could to help us, we were married, adults, with two children. It was time for us to start providing for ourselves. We spoke with some very close friends, they were Military and had been for many years, Air Force. They do and will always hold special places in our hearts. We look up to them. Without meaning to they planted a seed.

I cannot give them all the credit. God gave me strength and courage to face what I had never known and take the jump. Without Him we would not be where we are today. We are finally providing for ourselves, we are our own family, making our own way in the world. We're happy, truly happy, for the first time since I can remember. I miss my family greatly. I miss having Mom's help, getting Dad's advice, seeing Nathan growing up and accomplishing things, spending time with my sister and my brother. I believe they are happy to know we're happy.